Yesterday the prompt was to write and send a letter. I plan on doing this, I just have to finish off one or two things before I do. So, I've postponed that post.
Today's is 'Dance like No One's Watching'. I've taken this to mean learn to let go and be yourself, without constantly worrying what others think of you. This isn't an easy thing to do. This year I've tried my best.
I don't usually make New Years resolutions. This year I did. Granted I think by the time I'd made it it was nearing the end of January, but it still counts, right? My resolution was to stop complaining about things as much. If I can change the thing I'm complaining about, then I should just do that. If I can't, then it's even more of a waste of energy to complain. I was lonely at the start of the year, so I pro-actively went out of my way to try and talk to people more online, comment on blogs more (something I'm failing to do at the moment.) and every opportunity I've had I've met up with the people I've been talking to. We hated our flat. So we've moved to one that isn't mouldy and has a fully functional bedroom ceiling.
The other thing I've done is try and be more myself online and around other people. I've tried to edit what I say a lot less. Last year I'd type and delete something several times over before pressing enter. Now I try and press enter straight away. I also join in conversations on Twitter a lot more, instead of lurking in the shadows. I try and open up a bit quicker when meeting people for the first time.
All of this has made me a happier, better person. There is always going to be parts of myself that make me cringe (my voice, mostly my voice and the way I sometimes sound like I'm being really critical when I'm not). I'm always going to be worried that if I don't act a certain way whoever I'm meeting will dislike me. I'm gradually, slowly learning that those people aren't worth spending my energy on. It's better to spend my energy on those who love me for who I am. This all singing (it's like a jukebox in my head sometimes), all dancing (although not very well), sometimes critical, very bossy, but always means well person.
I can't quite think of a way to end this post, so I'm going to put a video of a 2 year showing everyone how it's done.