I'm not a natural exerciser. I never have been. I enjoyed team sports when I was younger, and I love swimming. Doing laps, though, or running around in a circle has always seemed pointless to me. I can walk for hours exploring, taking pictures, trying to get to the top of that hill over there to see what's on the other side. But physical activity for no other reason than to get hot and sweaty has never appealed to me.
I know it's very good for you. I know that it can not only prolong your life, but it makes it healthier, too. I know I want to lose a few kilo's (only a very few, mind) and want to gain muscle mass in order to look toned and the only way I can do it is by diet and exercise. Every evening when I get home from work, my brain ignores these facts and screams "BUT I DON'T WANT TO" at me.
It's very, very hard to fight your brain.
I've done couch to 5k. I want to get out running again, as I can't afford gym membership right now and I honest to goodness hate the sterile environment. I like feeling the wind and rain on my skin. You just don't get that in a gym. I come home with the intention of running, and my brain always wins the fight - it doesn't want to run, it has spend all day out the house and now it's back in the house, it wants to stay in now. Thank you.
So, I'm fighting back. I bought Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred a few months ago, and was getting pretty far with it. My brain still wasn't happy, but it couldn't fight against the fact that we're not leaving the house any more. Plus it's less than half an hour.
Then we moved. And I didn't have the time to exercise (packing and unpacking) and then I had no space to do exercise. So, I stopped. However, I'm tired of not wearing jeans because my tree trunk thighs don't like being enclosed in fabric right now. I'm sick of seeing my once gorgeous arms all big and what not. So the bedroom has been moved around, and there is now space to exercise.
I did workout one of the DVD today. I have lost so much fitness in the last two and a half months. It shocked me how difficult I found it, compared to last time. The great thing I found last time was that that feeling reduces as you do the workouts each day. I think I eventually even managed a couple of proper press ups last time. You're supposed to do it for 30 days in a row to get the benefit, so, here goes. At the end of those 30 days, where hopefully exercise will have become a habit, I hope to reintroduce running into my routine.
To keep me motivated, I'm going to post the pictures I took of myself in a sports bikini before I last started 30 Day Shred. If you're not keen on seeing pictures of my wibbly bottom (encased in bikini shorts, I promise!), then feel free not to look. This is for me. As a reminder. To keep me going. Once upon a time, not so very long ago, I had a flat stomach and thighs that didn't rub when I walked. Slowly, but surely, I will get these things once more.
|I've included a picture of my face, because there's the slightest double chin that appears sometimes when I smile.|
I will get there in the end. The only thing that's been stopping me so far is myself. Nothing is going to change if I don't make it change. So...here goes!